I have fought the demons of my own dark night
Finding only shadows in the dawning light
From the song “Time for You” on the album “Casual Crimes” by John Fischer
This is a big week in the Fischer household. On Thursday we will witness what many thought was not possible: Our youngest son, Chandler, will be graduating from Fusion Academy with a high school diploma and a 3.5 GPA. There have been professionals who have told us at one point that Chandler would never be able to read. We have watched him defy that and many other proclamations made on his behalf that predicted sadder outcomes than the one we celebrate this week.
Chandler has made his own way. We have not always supported all of his choices but we have been there for him the whole way, as have many of you. You followed us to Wyoming for 10 months of treatment and family therapy. You followed us home for the difficult adjustments necessary to keep him on a track to complete this important stage of his life. You have prayed for him, and us, and have contributed to our needs. We feel like you should share in this accomplishment as well.
Chandler has always fought his own demons. He is aware of spiritual warfare like few others I know. He has an intuitive sense of God in his life and he feels the burden of the conflicts we bear in this human existence. Sometimes I wish he were less aware of that, because it has meant he has grown up carrying a weight way beyond his years. We don’t know the extent of what he fights every day, but we know the battle goes on. I often wish I could lighten his load, but I am not in charge of that.
However, yesterday morning our daughter, Anne, lightened the load for all of us. She surprised us by showing up from her home in Hawaii on a plane that landed at 6:30 a.m.. When she walked in the house, her mother was overcome with joy. With our oldest son, Christopher, going into surgery on the day of Chandler’s graduation for a broken collarbone and unable to attend the ceremony, her presence has taken on huge significance. “You don’t think I would miss my baby brother’s graduation do you?” she texted me yesterday morning, as she revealed her plan to me to keep a secret from Marti. It was so much fun. I’ve never seen Marti more overwhelmed with joy.
Today’s Catch goes out with a big Thank You to all of you who have shown an interest in Chandler along the way. I wish you all could be there. You should be; you are a part of this.
Chandler is not one for celebration. He distrusts fluff of any kind. Hyperbole does not suit him. He greeted his sister’s surprise arrival with a certain amount of disinterest. He acted like he knew she would be here. He probably did; that would suit his inside track with God. He and his sister share a special relationship. We are so glad she is here.
Chandler lives in a very real world with a certain amount of pain I wish I knew how to relieve. Pray for a lifting of the shadows this week, and the breakthrough of a dawning light.