Addicted to the way we were


10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

I took a personal inventory late last night and it was very revealing. Marti made me get up out of bed to write it down lest I forget it by morning which is my standard practice. I have a complicated system of forgetfulness, and no, it’s not Alzheimers. It’s a coping mechanism. I’ve been doing this most of my life. I conveniently forget whatever is too painful to remember. And change is painful.

Most of the items in my inventory have to do with things I need to change, and the big question is: do I want to change? I am aware of the pull to stay the same. Change takes effort. It means being alert, on guard, fully awake and plugged into the Lord. It’s true we can’t change ourselves; only God can change us. Still, we have to want it, and we have to get ourselves to the place of risking something in order to have it. We don’t just snap our fingers for this and out comes new person.

The way we’ve always been, even if it’s not healthy, is the greatest addiction of all. Call it the status quo. Call it the way we were. When you’re my age, there’s a little voice inside your head that tells you, “You’re too old to change. You’re done. If it hasn’t happened by now, it’s not gonna happen.”

And yet, there doesn’t seem to be any age consideration placed on 2 Corinthians 5:17: “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” Yes, the new life has begun, but in order to experience this new life, we need to step into it. Paul tells us to “put off” the old and “put on” the new. That sounds like an act of the will to me. That’s a choice. And I believe we must make that choice moment by moment, every day.

So here we go. Who’s going to join me? Step out of the old; step into the new. Make the choice.

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12 Responses to Addicted to the way we were

  1. Mark D Seguin says:

    Reading good books I’ve found to be one of the best ways, beside the Holy Spirit to help encourage me to make changes…

  2. Sandie says:

    The choice faces me every morning – I do my devotional and pray that it is so – as the day proceeds;in every situation – I HAVE TO MAKE THE CHOICE TO MAKE IT SO. Making Jesus Lord of your life…day by day, minute by minute, second by second at times…is not for the weak – hearted.

  3. peter leenheer says:

    You are right, the devil we know, we won’t let go. At least for me this is true. What Mark says is also my experience…good books, and the Holy Spirit Himself. Jesus calls the Holy Spirit our advantage. Wow, you couldn’t have a better leg up. Just reflecting on what the Spirit has taught me…he has led me to all bible study plans, books, events of encounter with him, scripture, and people who profess him, and also people who need him but don’t know him.

    Yes, the choice to follow him or not, faces me in the morning also. Choosing for him is a pleasure immeasurable once made.

  4. Jesus Aguilar says:

    Good morning John, and my brothers and sisters. May the choice you made this morning be guided by the Holy Spirit and you are in peace.
    I am an awe of the Power of God, His love for us brought us to this forum and we have listened to the call and are willingly participating. This is the work of our LORD AND SAVIOR and we must give the Glory to Him.
    Glory be to God in the highest.
    John thank you for turning us to your school friend. I clicked and log to his site and now as a result I am reading the Bible in one year. Hallelujah!
    Remember that what is shared by me, is my experience only but if it helps you go ahead and use it
    We alcoholics and addicts are complicated people, knowing this we need to keep it very simple.
    During my daily affairs, I am encounter with life, meaning mean people and nice people. People that stand in the corner begging for help, people rushing, people distracted. Well how I react to this people depends in my daily preparation. -What I am going to do is: PURE? LOVING? HONEST? UNSELFISH? if it matches with these standards, I go ahead and say it or do it. if not than I stay away and wait for another opportunity. At night, I review my day: Where was I short or nasty? How could I have done something better? Do I owe an amends?
    Forgive me LORD for I am a sinner and help me to do better tomorrow!
    Simple and the good thing is that it works, has been working for 28 years. Praise God
    Jesus Aguilar

  5. Sandie says:

    I have just finished reading a book that closely parallels what we are learning and discussing regarding the 12 Steps – THE ME I WANT TO BE by John Ortberg. It was a good read; biblical truths shared with common sense and humor. I bought it at a thrift shop so I don’t know if it’s still available – if you can get a copy I highly recommend it. Blessings.

    • Jesus Aguilar says:

      Awesome Sandie, I found it and getting ready to have it sen. Again, thank you.
      Jesus Aguilar

      • Sandie says:

        I’m glad you found it – I have found a lot of ‘gems’ that are unfortunately out of print while cruising the thrift shops…why buy retail?! Anyway, I hope you find it useful and enjoyable. Have a blessed day!
        Jeremiah 29:11
        Phillipians 1:6

      • Jesus Aguilar says:

        Sandie good morning, the prices go from $ 6.00 (I bought this one) to $ 20.00 to rich for my blood
        Thank you for your kind thoughts. The Word of God will stand forever
        Jesus Aguilar

      • Sandie says:

        Glad you found it, and at such a decent price! Mine is hardcover, but like I said, I’m a thrift shop hunter! I have found quite a few gems that are out of print,(books I lent years ago that were never returned – I hope they went where the Spirit did His work) – and I think a few first printings.

      • Jesus Aguilar says:

        Aha, I had the same experiences so now I by second hand books soft cover, read them and if I see that some one has interest, I just let them go. It happens more often than that. It is a good attitude to let them go hoping that the Holy Spirit finds home for them.

  6. Sandie says:

    And I find myself repeating myself….time to put my feet up and rest my brain!!

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