Step 3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
“My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” Matthew 26:39
So I had the Catch all ready to go out about four hours ago, but I didn’t like it. It was boring. It had some great teaching in it, but nothing from our lives, which is what we’re supposed to be about here — “connecting life to faith” — and what Marti tells me is the best thing about my writing. So now I was faced with a dilemma: either the Catch is going to be late, and my plans for the day will have to be altered, or I send it out, bore you all to death, and go on with my business.
So I decided to do the next best thing — read it to my wife. I knew there was about a 2% chance of her liking it, and I was right. Only it was 0%. Still, I was tempted to send it out anyway. So we started talking about the whole idea of surrendering — turning over your life and your will to God — and agreed that we use these words a lot without really knowing what they mean. Words like “sacrifice,” “giving up,” and “leaving it all to the Lord.” Do we really know what these words mean, or even what they’re trying to describe? How can I put some skin and bones on these concepts that are so nebulous? We all act like we know what we’re talking about, but do we?
That’s when I suddenly realized I was sitting right on top of the story I was seeking. My will and a higher will were in conflict. It’s all about turning my will over to what I know God wants. I wanted to be lazy; I didn’t want to have to work harder. Start over? I didn’t get up at 4:30 this morning for nothing.
I have ways of doing things that are fraught with years of shortcuts. It’s because they are based on me and my limitations and shortcomings and covering up with my various excuses and coping mechanisms. Sounds like anybody’s addictions to me. To turn my life over to the Lord means to go His way and trust His Spirit for the power and the outcome.
And it means opening my life to another. To be vulnerable to someone who knows my weaknesses and can spot when I am coping with my limitations and not walking in His power, doing the right things for the right reasons. So thanks Marti.
Do you have your own story you can tell about refusing to let go of your control over things?
Are you glad for this “Second Catch?” What did you take from it?
What would you like to see addressed about the 12 Steps?