She’s an emotional wreck. She feels useless. She has a number of unreached goals in life and she feels too tired to take them up again. Her life seems to be full of inconsequential busyness. She is sad. She feels she has lost a spiritual fervor she once had. She feels like she hasn’t accomplished anything of real value with her life. Her life used to be much more interesting and stimulating — full of theater, art, plays, trips to the museum. Even church doesn’t satisfy. The pastor gets too political and she doesn’t always agree with his politics. She’s lacking in purpose: What is she here for? She’s overloaded with pressure from things that need to be done, but none of these things are going to affect any lasting change in anyone’s life. She’s got errands and schedules that leave her exhausted, but in the end, what does she have to show for it?
So states an email we received this week from one of our most faithful members. It was a surprise, but not really. Many of us are getting to that stage in life where we are asking ourselves these and similar questions. What have we accomplished with our lives? Do we have enough time and energy to change what we might not like about our answer to that question?
I immediately thought of the classic song Peggy Lee made famous in 1969, “Is That All There Is?”
Is that all there is
If that’s all there is, my friends
Then let’s keep dancing
Let’s break out the booze and have a ball
If that’s all there is
It’s a human dilemma common to everyone. No one would be fully honest if they didn’t feel some of this. Peggy’s song would not be famous if it didn’t touch on something universal.
Personally I am grateful for our dear friend’s incredible honesty, because I see something positive in it. Overall, she is telling us that she is restless, and that she is not done. Amen. And I believe God has done this because He is getting us all ready for something more. We are not restless just to be restless (God is not a killjoy), but this restlessness is leading to something new. God is going to do a new thing and we — yes, you and I — are going to be a part of it.
It took courage to put these feelings in writing where you can actually face them; and even more to share them with others. But I am glad she has. Not that I want to make light of the emptiness and depression found in these feelings — these things have been real and painful — but I am convinced this is for a reason; that this restlessness is leading to a new productivity. If God creates an emptiness, it’s because He intends to fill it. Pioneers are always restless. That’s why they pick up and go somewhere else. God is taking us to a new place and He will make us restless until we get there.